about some libraries

State Library…

That was my second time and second time that was bad result.I came back home angry till tears on my cheeks.

There are 3 reasons – Hasan told – why these women are THAT miserable. They are just library women next to all these professor every day around. Nobody fuck them. I’m sorry, figlioletta. And their salary is smaller then nothing. U have to understand.

Hasan ends up in this way every time he calms me down. U have to understand.

It’s striking how this place managed to

keep this dusty un-human miserable atmosphere. Manage to be full of cards instead of books and of disgust instead of people. It will take u some special efforts to get to book. And first – right after this heavy doors – is trying to understand and stand the fact that all these old women – without even watching at u – not even a glance – without even watching at u make u feel loathsome and unworthy. Remembering all the books of Alexandrian library I ran down dusty stair to literature which is not there.

And u… u’re about reading Dostoyevsky. U’re really about reading Dostoyevsky. MY Dostoyevsky…