that was in ur life?

- I’m really affected with one idea. Sometimes it makes me awake and weird. That every second… in metro, in the street, turning the corner u suddenly can meet, can face, can see the absolute beauty, the absolute happiness, the absolute person… ever second. When u’re not ready. When u don’t wait. In the middle of ur day and of ur life… That’s so strange – I murmled in end of the day (or in the beginning…?) – when mom came to me for a small talk.

- And sometimes… yes, in metro… u can read ur book sitting in metro and suddenly feel something in ur belly. Feel something and don’t understand what is going on. U lift up ur head – not for somebody, u just lift up ur head to get rid of the feeling… and see hands. U see hands and suddenly u know, u see that this hands will embrace u. that u will be in this arms. U lift up ur head more and u see a man. He is watching u. and he knows, he sees everything. Too.

- That’s too much, mom – I smiled with my eyes closed. – overrun here!

When I opened my eyes mom was leaving my room.

- And that was, dear, - only she told.