if u decide..

If u decide to celebrate New Year in dormitory – usual dormitory of … State University – be ready to celebrate all the New Years of all the nationalities of the world (within the bounds of dormitory’s capacity). Be ready to celebrate New Year every half an hour even that time zone (if I’m not mistaken) divided in hours. I remembered the most Japanese one. Small shy Japanese neighbor became man of the world for a minute (and I really don’t remember at what time it was). Me and room of Kazakhstan guys where I found myself were absolutely happy about 2 short words which showed that in Japan too New Year came.

Present which I gave was adapted Dostoyevsky. “He wrote about soul. Read this book. I’m glad that I got to know ur soul. So complicated and beautiful”.

And if u decide to celebrate New Year in dormitory never take friends in whom u’re not sure any more with u. U will be ashamed. Ashamed because they will throw glasses in ur head, beat ur face, cry and shout on u generally and pour the water on ur body when u’re already sleeping. In the end u don’t remember and don’t wanna actually remember - because the booz of champagne is the most “vertigo” one. In the end ur New Year was marvelous and his – didn’t. In the end the time to turn the page of the chapter which had to finish came and u feel relief. In the end the time to close again the period of ur life (which I so used to do) came and u feel no more then relief again.
A little bit ashamed for a New Year. And relief.

Pust’ vse budet horosho. Let everything be good. – I was writing and writing this night. And I believed it. Because it’s right time to believe.